is purposely not taking care of yourself a form of self injury. like, to a significant degree. not going to the dr’s (fear, being trans, being overweight), staying up until 3-4am every single night/early morning, seriously falling behind on personal hygiene stuff (haven’t bathed in a long time, sorry), not eating until dinner almost every day (i probably wouldn’t eat all day if no-one lived with me), etc.
& of course ive been thinking about cutting myself. so so much. i miss it. it’s definitely been on my mind (i’m haunted by razors, oh no) i-i want to make new scars cuz my current ones are very faded. it’s the only thing i’m good at