09/19/18, 11.57p // self hate, relationships

initial thought: i’m so fucking pathetic for wanting a partner who cares about me, lol

at every turn i seek to knock myself into the dirt bc i have such a low opinion of myself

i honestly feel like i don’t deserve any kindness. ive always felt that to an extent but especially after this relationship’s eventual end. it’s been 13 days & i’m chastising(sp?) myself for not being over him yet

i think he cared about me in his own way, but 2yrs in i started feeling “”starved for attention”” (& he didn’t like me saying that so i stopped mentioning it) & i’ve felt very starved for attention since then