11/22/11 // 04.27p

trigger warnings required,
trigger warning: eating disorder stuff & weight,


woke up, weighed myself.

I weighed XXX.X the last time and now I weigh XXX.X

which is the highest I’ve weighed all year.

it’s easy to say “you don’t understand”
but it’s even easier to say “don’t worry about it, it’s just weight. it fluctuates.”

cool, okay, but that doesn’t help at all.
I know not eating just makes you gain. but it’s what I’ve become accustomed to.

I don’t care if this is whiny, I’m sick of the way my body looks.

“oh but you’re so thin!”

no I’m fucking not.

what I rqdon’t understand is how people can say that.